I feel like it can be easy for me to feel like I’m making a ton of progress.
And then I realized that my progress was compartmentalized.
So in other words, I’ll grow in certain areas that are needed, but not in all. I’ll put my focus on some, and not the big picture.
Or I’ll focus on one thing and not the big thing that needs to be worked on (the place it needs it most). So I’ll find low hanging fruit to work on, but not reach for the most important issues.
And to be honest, it’s been very hard for me. I really wanted to be open with you guys on this.
I’ve also found that when you compartmentalize growth, you’re taking steps backward. If you’re not progressing as a whole, then the areas where you’re not growing will start to pull back in the places you have.
So for instance, many of you know that I’ve dealt with fear since I was a kid. And when I only focus on getting rid of fear with making sure I do things out of love and not fear, fear will pop it’s head up in other areas of my life. If I’m not dealing with fear as whole and fighting it off completely, then it will be an endless cycle.
Fighting My Battle
And when it comes to seeing my problems as a whole that I need to get rid of completely, it can be easy to lose hope or feel overwhelmed.
But I felt like I kept on having the story in the Bible of Joshua and Jericho highlighted to me (and for those of you who aren’t Christians, I promise, this will definitely help you out).
When God brought the Israelites to the Promised Land, he had spies go into the city to scope it out and understand what they were taking.
When they came back, they came with a huge vine of grapes to show the kind of abundance that was in the land God was giving them. But, only two of the spies (Joshua and Caleb), gave excited reports about taking the land. While the others were saying, “Gosh, these guys are giants! We’re outnumbered and no match for them!” Joshua and Caleb kept on telling the people, “But guys, this is the land that God gave us! It’s flowing with milk and honey! God will help us and give us the land! Let’s take it!”
And of course the people of Israel only bought into the fears of the other spies.
I’ve been finding myself being like the people of Israel. Buying into the fears and hopelessness that comes against me and my change.
Even when God tells me that He’d help me and get Me through it, I find it hard to believe in myself and believe in Him.
Especially when I have a day where I’m not running to the Promised Land and I’m not taking ground. It’s easy for me to think, “Gosh, I screwed up so much today, is there even hope for me? Can I even do this?”
But then I remember what happened to the Israelites… when they didn’t believe and take the land God was giving them, they wandered the desert for 40 years.
I’ve found that it can be easy for me to push off progress for another day, saying, “Oh, I’ll work or do this tomorrow.” But I’ve been doing that for years. I put off change because it was something I could do later.
And putting off change and ‘taking the land’ will delay me in where I need to go and entering into the future God has planned for me.
How I Want to Fight My Battles
After 40 years of wandering in the desert, the first generation of Israelites had died off (except for those, like Joshua, who believed in God to give them land 40 years before), and the next generation was ready to take the land.
And when they did take Jericho, they didn’t stop there. God told them to continue to take the rest of the land from their enemies. There were still cities and towns they had to conquer.
God was pushing for them to see their whole victory, not just parts. He didn’t want them to have “some of the land.” He hadn’t planned out “some land” for them, he had planned out an entire kingdom for them to take.
And taking this land was going to bless future generations.
I’ve found that everyday is a chance for me to take the land.
I want to take the land in becoming a better wife for my husband, a better business woman, and someone not ruled by fear.
And to be honest, since starting Becoming Wonder Woman, I’ve struggled to make progress each and every day.
I’d have a great day, and then the next day, I’d let fear rule over my decision making and take a step backward.
It’s something that I’m tired of doing. I’m tired of falling behind in my progress.
And so I decided that each day needed to be leveled up.
I feel like it’s been easy for me to say, “Well, I hope I can have a good day like yesterday.” But I need to be telling myself, “So, yesterday was good, what can I do to level up this day?”
What decisions or progress can I make today to make it better than the one before?
It was something that Silas and I talked about. He had brought up about it becoming a challenge.
If you’ve ever played video games before (like Mario), then you know how frustrating it can be to finally get to a new level and then have to go back to the last one because you weren’t able to beat the boss.
You get excited to finally be experiencing something new and moving on and then… you face off the boss. And you lose the battle and have to replay a level you’ve been done with for awhile. A level you don’t want to be on anymore.
This is my challenge for the coming days, weeks, and months.
How can I level up my affection towards my husband? How can I level up my productivity as a business woman? How can I fight off fear better than I did the day before?
It’s all about working on how to get to the next level, and that’s something I want to do in my life, and continue doing throughout.
And that’s actually pretty exciting!
After I get past the main problems in my life that I’m working on, I can look at each day or week or month or year and see how I could improve upon it and improve upon myself as a person. I don’t need to see this Becoming Wonder Woman challenge as a place to stop.
I can find more ways to level up each part of my life and become a better person for my husband and the people around me.
So, what are you working on in your life right now? How can you level it up each day?